seriously stop reading this and either buy it or if you have to download it. if you are a fan of elctronic music or are open to new things just get it. its one of the best albums i've ever heard.

I dont really like writing journals, but this is really just a request im making to all of you reading this.

Im really trying to work on improving my photography and it would mean a great deal to me if you could be the harshest critics possible on my stuff. If you see a photo or whatever that you like, i want you to tear it appart and point out all the flaws you see, that way i can get better.

thanks all, and lemme know if you would like me to critique your stuff aswell. i'd be more than happy to.

Hmm, being stuck in a town such as cranbrook is an interesting experience.

The rose tinted glasses of ones youthful memories strangely disappear, leaving one with a strange dichotomy of "hey, life was never this bad! What happened?"

Everything seems to have both changed and totally stayed the same, the people, the biting cold, the astounding natural beauty of the countryside surrounding.

One must look to life for inspiration and focus.

I am inspired and focused on leaving cranbrook once again to rose tinted glasses.

think of this is a crash course in Rylan.

first from my perspective on happiness in my life.

im happy only when i have a person to share life with. i suppose you could say i am half a soul. depending on who i am with changes who i am at the time. i suppose one could say that my relationships are a little like trying on new shoes. sometimes they are for a reason, sometimes for a special occasion, but sometimes you find ones that are just right and you stay wearing them long untill there are full of holes, smell really funky and are more like an extention of yourself.

and all i have left at the moment are shoes that fit, are pretty comfortable at the moment but clearly showing that they wont last the winter.

adventure is all around us at all times. with a keen eye and an open mind the world will open up to you and show you everything it has hidden away for a brave soul to come across and discover.

i suppose i could sum up my plans for the future as a shopping list.

-shoes that i never want to part with
-a bag of fresh socks and underwear.
-a camera
-time to spend on nothing better than wandering around the world. smelling flowers, eating random food, dancing in the rain.

turns out, shoes that you can do all these things with are hard to find in small towns such as these.

back in canada again. hurray-ish.

so, now that i am back i am slowly but surely remembering all the reasons i left. and it seems in this part of the world things dont really change.

the last three years havent really changed the city itself either. its still small, still boring, and i have taken a job at the possibly sole interesting place to work. the coffee shop that i basically grew up in and took refuge in through my angsty teenage years.

family life is stil trying to spin off the top of my head. the dynamics in my whole family, though not really that crazy are still aggrevating and headache inducing.

and as an added bonus. all the girls my own age have fled to the major cities.

i think it is fairly certain to deduce that my own personal hell looks a lot like cranbrook BC

good god i need a distraction.

i found possibly the worlds second best distraction. right between a job playing videogames and swedish twins.

i bough today, a mask.


no not just any mask. anakin skywalkz.

and not just from the shitty prequils. from the animated prequil.

a grown man wearing that thing is impossible to keep a straight face around. its hillarious. expect pics soon. possibly even a utooob vid sometime. haha